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dirty, dying, dead and the future...



as i continue to grow in Christ, its the simple things i find that matter most - spent some time this morning reading and praying about these few verses...

John 12:24-26 - I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life. Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves me.

i've read this passage many times and have even taught and preached from it before...i guess the thing that strikes me the most this morning is that Jesus says that I must follow Him and where He is, that's where i'll be - except, i left out one thing...He says, 'my servant' also will be - get that? it's not just enough to be where Jesus is, i have to be who he wants me to be - which is to say He wants me to be a servant - in fact, i can't get where He is unless i am first a servant - how does that happen? it happens by not loving my life...it happens by allowing that kernel of wheat to fall to the ground and die so that there's more that comes forth...

as i approach another decade of life this year, the thought that's crossed my mind the past couple of days is 'what will be my legacy?' - i've been thinking about that...one of my legacies, if i embrace it and truly do all that God wants me to do - will be that of a husband and father - bottom line, and i've always said this, if i loose my family, i've lost it all. my ministry begins with my family. another legacy that i pray will come about will be adding value to the church and to others that follow Christ - that's a tall order and not one that i've always done a good job - but, that's ok, this is a marathon, not a sprint.

Jesus warned us that a kernel of wheat (a seed) cannot produce 'many seeds' unless it falls to the ground and dies! that means, in order to leave a legacy, in order to see 'many seeds' i've first got to be willing to go to the place where it's possible that i may get stepped on...i've got to be willing to go to the place where i will get dirty...i've got to be willing to go to the place where obscurity is probable...and significance and platitudes are of no concern. i've got to be willing to 'fall to the ground and die' - that means i've got to be willing to let the soil of life sometimes fall on me so that i can learn what it means to push through that soil (as a seed does) so that new life can come forth...

one final thought...in the next verse (vs. 27) Jesus says that his heart is troubled - He knows the time of His death is approaching...i like that Jesus is very 'real' in this passage - my heart's been troubled before as well (although not to the magnitude that His was in that moment). Jesus asks a hypothetical question - 'what shall is say? Father save me from this hour' - that was His statement - His answer to his hypothetical question...'no, it was for this very reason that i came to this hour' - i love the determination, passion and understanding of His purpose - it was for this VERY REASON that he came to THIS hour...think about it - would love to hear your comments...

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